What can I say about my sister? A lot actually. She can be a pain. But...Somehow....I love her...Somehow. She doesn't know what a big part of my life she is. I never tell her because she'd never believe me. She doesn't believe a lot of things...
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Hey, I know you hate me and all that. But why do you hate me? I never did anything to you. I've never even talked to you before. Those stupid rumors you hear doesn't mean they're true! Kay? So shut your stupid mouth a getting a fudging life! Thank you!
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People say that words don't hurt. Well, those people would be wrong. Words hurt more than anything else in the world. I have experienced this my entire life. From bullies, even my own family. It makes me think of suicide. And I think past memories are starting to haunt me. But I always say to myself that love is louder than the presure to be perfect...

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I shed my tears when I think about him, although I get butterflies everytime I see him. He makes me sad, but also happy. I can no longer trust my feelings, as they lie to me. I hate the way I feel when I'm with him, because I don't want to be happy or sad. Feelings that play trick on me, that don't make sense. That lie and decieve me. I hate those feelings I get in my stomach, like I've dry-swallowed a huge pill. Or I've just had a heart attack.

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I saw you and him together today. You looked so cute together. So in love, the way I wish I could be. Hearts do heal, but they leave scars from the love you once shared. When he ripped his love out of your heart. It healed, but now you're scarred. And there isn't anything you can do about it. No matter how much you try, you'll never heal the scars. The hurting. The bleeding may have stopped. But the pain doesn't...
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You lay there, blood stained the carpets. Bones broken, blood coming from your head. I gasp in shock as I see the one I love be beaten to near death. I see your eyes slowly look at me then up at the man who hits you with a baseball bat. He hits you in your stomach, arms, and legs. Then runs away. I be sure he's gone and come for you. I lay my hand on your cheek...Again, you look up at me. Those beautiful eyes I can't stand to look away from my horror. I whisper to you, Everything's going to b...
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We used to be so in love, so carefree, so unbreakable. Until you moved away, you met someone else. And told me it was over. You told me that you felt for her more than what you used to feel for me. You're giving your love to her, and finding more and more to give. So much love can never be contained in a human being. There will some a day when you have so much love, and only one way to give it to her. And then the next day she'll give it all back. And then you'll walk around with all your lov...

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I hate the way you don't see through my eyes. How you never care about my fragile feelings? I lose all my feeling for you. You're such a worthless player who never cared, who never wanted me anyways. I'm glad to be rid of you. Because my heart was once heavy, and now it feels so light that I could fly. But my question is...Do you even care that I've let you go? Do feel upset in any way. That you lost such a treasure...No? It figures. You could never feel before, why would you start now. You d...
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You left me in tears today. How could you, after all we've been through. The pain and torture. You're freaking out, I just know it...You've never acted this way before. You couldn't possibly mean what you've said. You can't possibly be telling the truth. Tell me you're lying, and come back inside my dear. Pick your bags up off the floor that you left as you stumbled down the hallway. Tell me that we're not finished. Undo what has been done. I'd give anything.

Put the gun down, and we can talk....
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Forget about the past, because it is long gone. Forget about the future, for it will never be. Forget about the happiness of another day with you. Because you broke my heart, I now hate you. I want to forget about the laughs we shared. And the titimes we spent as Valentines. The times we were such love doves, it made my heart swell with happiness. But I no longer feel that happiness. Only the pain of your lies.

Only regret fills my veins, of what was once the sweet happiness of you. I choose t...
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My dear, we dance a slow waltz around our shattered love. Trying to avoid the crumbling peices of our love that falls from the heavens. The Earth seems to crumble beneath our feet. We hold onto each other for dear life, we hold onto our love. The love that we've lived our life by. The love that used to hold us together, but now breaks us apart. I won't deny my continuous love for you that will never fade. No matter what forces try to break us apart. I will hold on. Even when you let go. I che...

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I had the worst day I could possibly imagine. Nothing else could have been worse in my life. I wished I could've been dead. I just wanted to die. I wanted to say good-bye to my best friend first though...I got on Facebook, hoping she would be on. She was. I messaged her, "Hey." A few minutes later she messaged back the same thing. Then I messaged her, "Good-bye." I knew she would be confused. She didn't message back. I figured she knew. I went into my room to cry. And then I called her, she a...
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Perhaps after today...I cannot feel anymore. I've shown no emotion, even though on the inside I'm crying and begging. Begging for someone to help me. Maybe I can feel on the inside. But maybe not on the outside. I don't want to though. Emotions are my weakness, and I defy weaknesses. Because when I'm weak, I cry. And I've cried enough....

After today, I don't want to have my emotions. I want someone to help me though. But then again, I really just don't. Mom tries to help me, but I don't want ...
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I feel like I should tell him how much I love him. He probably is certian of that by now though...I don't want him to be creeped out or anything. I want everything to stay the same. But everybody else knows, why wouldn't he know? I love him with all my heart. Even though love leads to heartbreak. And pain. And no one would care about that. No one seems to want to get thier own life and stop messing with mine. I don't care if he just wants us to be friends. At least things wouldn't be differen...
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I don't know why she hates me so much. I never did anything to her. I'm just myself and I get put-down for that. Mostly by this girl in my Theatre class. She's vicious. Always trying to ruin my life or make me cry. What did I ever do to deserve it? I'm not a mean person. I'm not a sinner. I personally live in H-E-DOUBLE HOCKYSTICKS!!!!
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So, here I am. Waiting to see if you really care. But hey, who really does. I'm just waiting to be free. Free from the drama, free from my personal Soap Opera. Free from everything. It seems like I have no reason to live. But then again, there's always a reason. There's a reason for the hate, for the crime. For the deaths of loved ones. For your personal hate, for your personal crimes. For the days you've died a little inside. I'm not trying to relate to you. And I honestly don't want you to ...
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