I got a Facebook page now! I can't believe I never did this sooner! Haha! Anyways, so life has been kind of difficult right now. Had to move in with the grandparents, I have to switch schools... Yeah. But I shouldn't really focus on the negative. I still have my friends and family..Minus one family member. My great grandmother died last Thursday. It's been hard. But she's in a better place now :3


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What can I say about my sister? A lot actually. She can be a pain. But...Somehow....I love her...Somehow. She doesn't know what a big part of my life she is. I never tell her because she'd never believe me. She doesn't believe a lot of things...
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People say that words don't hurt. Well, those people would be wrong. Words hurt more than anything else in the world. I have experienced this my entire life. From bullies, even my own family. It makes me think of suicide. And I think past memories are starting to haunt me. But I always say to myself that love is louder than the presure to be perfect...

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Deep down I love, but up high I hate you. You see deep down and know my true feelings. Which means I'm only lying to myself. Because it's so hard to lie to you when you look at me with those beautiful brown eyes. Everything you say to me makes as much sense as life. It makes total sense. I wish I could just kiss you and get it over with. But deep down, I'm too nervous. I love you too much.
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I shed my tears when I think about him, although I get butterflies everytime I see him. He makes me sad, but also happy. I can no longer trust my feelings, as they lie to me. I hate the way I feel when I'm with him, because I don't want to be happy or sad. Feelings that play trick on me, that don't make sense. That lie and decieve me. I hate those feelings I get in my stomach, like I've dry-swallowed a huge pill. Or I've just had a heart attack.

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You lay there, blood stained the carpets. Bones broken, blood coming from your head. I gasp in shock as I see the one I love be beaten to near death. I see your eyes slowly look at me then up at the man who hits you with a baseball bat. He hits you in your stomach, arms, and legs. Then runs away. I be sure he's gone and come for you. I lay my hand on your cheek...Again, you look up at me. Those beautiful eyes I can't stand to look away from my horror. I whisper to you, Everything's going to b...
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We used to be so in love, so carefree, so unbreakable. Until you moved away, you met someone else. And told me it was over. You told me that you felt for her more than what you used to feel for me. You're giving your love to her, and finding more and more to give. So much love can never be contained in a human being. There will some a day when you have so much love, and only one way to give it to her. And then the next day she'll give it all back. And then you'll walk around with all your lov...

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I hate the way you don't see through my eyes. How you never care about my fragile feelings? I lose all my feeling for you. You're such a worthless player who never cared, who never wanted me anyways. I'm glad to be rid of you. Because my heart was once heavy, and now it feels so light that I could fly. But my question is...Do you even care that I've let you go? Do feel upset in any way. That you lost such a treasure...No? It figures. You could never feel before, why would you start now. You d...
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You left me in tears today. How could you, after all we've been through. The pain and torture. You're freaking out, I just know it...You've never acted this way before. You couldn't possibly mean what you've said. You can't possibly be telling the truth. Tell me you're lying, and come back inside my dear. Pick your bags up off the floor that you left as you stumbled down the hallway. Tell me that we're not finished. Undo what has been done. I'd give anything.

Put the gun down, and we can talk....
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My dear, we dance a slow waltz around our shattered love. Trying to avoid the crumbling peices of our love that falls from the heavens. The Earth seems to crumble beneath our feet. We hold onto each other for dear life, we hold onto our love. The love that we've lived our life by. The love that used to hold us together, but now breaks us apart. I won't deny my continuous love for you that will never fade. No matter what forces try to break us apart. I will hold on. Even when you let go. I che...

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I had the worst day I could possibly imagine. Nothing else could have been worse in my life. I wished I could've been dead. I just wanted to die. I wanted to say good-bye to my best friend first though...I got on Facebook, hoping she would be on. She was. I messaged her, "Hey." A few minutes later she messaged back the same thing. Then I messaged her, "Good-bye." I knew she would be confused. She didn't message back. I figured she knew. I went into my room to cry. And then I called her, she a...
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I feel like I should tell him how much I love him. He probably is certian of that by now though...I don't want him to be creeped out or anything. I want everything to stay the same. But everybody else knows, why wouldn't he know? I love him with all my heart. Even though love leads to heartbreak. And pain. And no one would care about that. No one seems to want to get thier own life and stop messing with mine. I don't care if he just wants us to be friends. At least things wouldn't be differen...
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Imagine a world that was at peace with the obvious. Imagine a character as colorful as you are. Your perfect match that like what you do, but you both still argue the same way. Imagine if you will, anything you could ever want, anything. Getting anything you ever wanted, without having to ask for it. Now imagine getting everything you ever wanted. Only having to ask a million times a day until you get it. That would make you selfish wouldn't it?

Imagine people caring about you, without having ...
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Is love merely a game of "Chance?" Hoping that he will love her. And she will love him. Or is it a burning rage of fury which seems that burning rage seems to make you want more? As it becomes casual and delicate. The hurt and hate, becomes love and desire. I feel that if I were to love you, it would suffice.

It would be my choice, as not to be a game of "Chance." Or to be that burning rage in the slightest way. But to be a yearning, casual summer's day. That would never end. As I wish you ...

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Poetry speaks wonders about the love and tragedies of life itself. Of the burning desire for a lover. Of the inhumane sacrifices of a true daydream. And of a beautiful red rose that blooms just before sunrise on a beautiful summer day. In the Autumn Mist of a colorful victim. Or maybe the desire to be perfect only to be the unwilling Nevernever (And yes that's a word...It means Fantasy) of a true infedelity. As the lines "Come hither," I will come to the art of poetry. The burning desire for ...
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I am not going to start naming who he is...And why. But I will say he makes me feel like I'm really here. That I'm not worthless. If not that, when he looks at me I melt. I'm not afraid...I wish I could tell him. I wish I could just walk up to him one day and grab him by the shoulders. And then kiss him. And maybe he wouldn't pull back. Maybe he would kiss me back. Maybe he would feel the same way...If only...
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I really care about you. I really feel like I know you. I really feel like you're the one for me. I care, I share. I feel like you don't though. Somehow, you've shown your interest. I'm not saying you're in love with me, like I'm in love with you. But lately, I don't know. You're just something new. You're sweet, and kind. Everything I've ever wanted in a guy. You can sing, dance, act. You're just so...Special. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I love you. I've loved you since the day w...
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