So last week I left Ector...A week before that I told my best friend Haylee that I moved and wasn't leaving. She thought I was. When I came to Ector on Tuesday she was shocked. She thought I had left. And so did almost everybody else!!! And they seemed upset that I was back! Like they were happy that I was gone. Why were they happy?? Oh yeah, maybe because everybody hates me. Even Haylee acted upset that I was back! Whatever happened to true friends? Obviously that doesn't exist anymore!
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Call it what you will...Fear...Regret...Raw emotion. I don't care at all. For the blooming love from a red rose that never fades only unkempt to all I fear. For sorrow is not an excuse for living, or for wishing not to live. It's merely something mistaken for an emotion that people often feel is an emotion. It's sad. People say thier life is filled with sorrow. When really it is filled with regret, pity, violence, and real emotion.

People say that they would throw everything away because they ...
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I saw you and him together today. You looked so cute together. So in love, the way I wish I could be. Hearts do heal, but they leave scars from the love you once shared. When he ripped his love out of your heart. It healed, but now you're scarred. And there isn't anything you can do about it. No matter how much you try, you'll never heal the scars. The hurting. The bleeding may have stopped. But the pain doesn't...
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You lay there, blood stained the carpets. Bones broken, blood coming from your head. I gasp in shock as I see the one I love be beaten to near death. I see your eyes slowly look at me then up at the man who hits you with a baseball bat. He hits you in your stomach, arms, and legs. Then runs away. I be sure he's gone and come for you. I lay my hand on your cheek...Again, you look up at me. Those beautiful eyes I can't stand to look away from my horror. I whisper to you, Everything's going to b...
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We used to be so in love, so carefree, so unbreakable. Until you moved away, you met someone else. And told me it was over. You told me that you felt for her more than what you used to feel for me. You're giving your love to her, and finding more and more to give. So much love can never be contained in a human being. There will some a day when you have so much love, and only one way to give it to her. And then the next day she'll give it all back. And then you'll walk around with all your lov...

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You left me in tears today. How could you, after all we've been through. The pain and torture. You're freaking out, I just know it...You've never acted this way before. You couldn't possibly mean what you've said. You can't possibly be telling the truth. Tell me you're lying, and come back inside my dear. Pick your bags up off the floor that you left as you stumbled down the hallway. Tell me that we're not finished. Undo what has been done. I'd give anything.

Put the gun down, and we can talk....
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Forget about the past, because it is long gone. Forget about the future, for it will never be. Forget about the happiness of another day with you. Because you broke my heart, I now hate you. I want to forget about the laughs we shared. And the titimes we spent as Valentines. The times we were such love doves, it made my heart swell with happiness. But I no longer feel that happiness. Only the pain of your lies.

Only regret fills my veins, of what was once the sweet happiness of you. I choose t...
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Perhaps after today...I cannot feel anymore. I've shown no emotion, even though on the inside I'm crying and begging. Begging for someone to help me. Maybe I can feel on the inside. But maybe not on the outside. I don't want to though. Emotions are my weakness, and I defy weaknesses. Because when I'm weak, I cry. And I've cried enough....

After today, I don't want to have my emotions. I want someone to help me though. But then again, I really just don't. Mom tries to help me, but I don't want ...
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